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reading the article above reminds me of many other posts from others that indirectly and directly bring up this one idea: is art just a projection for our own egotism?

i remembered getting the shudders from a blog post that framed blogging as a way to stroke our ego. and it sucks because alot of the time, blogging is seen as being authentic in comparison to youtube content or streaming or social media.

yet this new yorker article about the love of writing reminds me of such and i can't stop having this one thought. yes, blogging and other art forms is a form of self-importance. but can we also embody the other side of the coin? can we also look at our self-importance as a way to communicate to not only ourselves but to others?

perhaps a balance must be established to make ourselves better. but alot of the most iconic art pieces -- poems, books, movies, artworks, games, etc. -- came from the most egotistical assholes i've ever encounteredd. this is something i've wrestled with for quite a while. a while back, my friends recommended me to explore improv or stand-up or even twitch streaming. these ideas i've always put on the bookshelves because i couldn't bare to think of myself being worthy of doing so.

it's kind of like when people murmur or cringe at people who actively post on social media. or walking around with people that vlog. yet at the same time, we all ingest content somehow on our phone or books or other ways of ingestion.

is it that the content we're consuming coming from people we don't know? or is it the idea of jealousy? and is the idea of not being capable spurring us to cringe at people we know that are creating art and similar content?

i'm lucky that my friend brought up blogging as a way to self-journal and consolidate my thoughts in a society where we don't have much time to do so. if not, i wouldn't be writing this right now. yet, i'm still wrestling with the idea of someone checking this out. someone that i know within my inner circle. we'll see as i keep chugging out my thoughts on this site. perhaps, faking it until i make it mindset-wise will bring some perspective on this weirdly non-issue i'm having.

update:

i brought this up to a friend and he said its cringe because people (we know) creating content are not "successful". what makes them not cringe if they're not successful? is that how friends of successful twitch streamers or social media people feel when they haven't blown up? i still can't wrap my mind around this (also, not a master at psychology specifically on this) but like i mentioned above, perhaps i'll find the answer by doing more of this site and other things